Don’t Go There

One always tries to forget the bad memories. The times they were hurt, the times they hurt.. the times they acted stupid .. the times they knew someone was acting stupid.. but they let it happen.

so now all we can do is to try to shut it out. like it never happened.
He once told me a person can modify a person’s memory to make it look as if something happened differently or not at all..

and that day I told him how sad the person must be that they just want to create memories by falsehood..that their real memories do nothing except to haunt them..
how terrible must their life has been.

What did I know that I would be wishing this for you.
I don’t want you to remember me.

I don’t want you to know that I ever existed.

I don’t want you to miss me.

I don’t want you to come back.

I don’t want you to worry about me.

You wanted an exit. This is it. I am giving it to you.
Accept it. Leave. And please don’t go there.

Stop coming back.

why should I let you in

when I know you only come here to say goodbye

Dont you know how much it hurts

to see your face and then to see you turn away

I cant ask you to stay

have i ever before

but seeing you leave

knowing you wont be here tomorrow

dont come back

how can i even ask this from you

when i need you all the time

but the pain of your goodbyes pierces me through

dont come back

not like this at least

stay. but dont come back.

stay. but dont come back

stay. but dont come back.

Malala: Nobel Peace Prize Winner 2014

Congratulations MALALA!!!!!!!

so very proud of you.

Here’s a re-plug to a letter I wrote you last year:


Last Goodbye

How can I change

What’s set in stone

You’ve moved On

But from me 

You can’t expect the same

Hey I called you a lot

Waited all day

That’s the most I could have done

To let you see my way

What’s inspired me to write

A song for you tonight

We burned all our bridges together

Never thought we’d lit the fire

For our last goodbye

What I Miss The Most From My Teenage Life

1. My innocence

What I would give to being innocent again…

2. Spending time with my favorite people

Lost all my favorite people in my teens… and nothing can replace them..

3. Listening but not paying attention

And now I am drawing patterns from everything I hear and see…

For the first time in 9 years

I did not wish my best friend happy birthday…deliberately.

We change, all of us.

But then how much should you adjust just to have certain people in your life? A time comes when you feel repulsed by the lack of spine in you.. and it’s really not a war of egos that you give into.. it’s .. why even bother?

They don’t. And you should learn to as well.

Growing up?